I adore my children and am so proud to be their mummy but I decided whilst reading a friends blog that this is something i want to do for me. to tell our journey with autism and how our lives are changed. Maybe I will get something out of writing this, to see later on just how far we have come.
The turning point i think was my sons 4th birthday party. Gees did i contemplate whether to do a party or not. Most often in partys my son plays by himself away from everyone, does not open presents, runs and hides and covers his ears when anyone sings happy birthday and basically does not cope all that well with masses of people around. But, i decided that, you know what we will try again....he did AMAZING!!!!
he smiled and smiled and smiled. and you know what I smiled and smiled too. He smiled during happy birthday song, he smiled when he opened up presents, he smiled and ran around soaking in everything. And for the first time in a long time I breathed.
Someone said to me shortly after my son was diagnosed that one day i would breathe again. when the paediatrician sat in front of us and said ...it is in our opinion that your son is moderately autistic, I literally stopped. It was as though my whole world changed, my dreams of his future and ours changed in that moment. I thought every thought i think that most parents think at diagnosis...will he live on his own? will he ever care enough about other people? be happy? get a job? get married? tell me that he loves me? what will happen to him if something happens to me? I am pretty sure that through my tears I asked the paediatrician, His answer to my questions is something i have hung on to. He said that he didnt know and could not tell me but no matter what the diagnosis whether it be mild, moderate or severe you just cannot tell how well they might do in therapy and just how far they can get. So I listened and the intervention journey started.
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